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Oct 11

To my Daughter's Grandparents

have written this poem for mom and dad, to help them celebrate their granddaughter’s birthday.

Sep 20

My Ultimate Grief Sacrifice

Today, I’d like to tell you about what I find to be the ultimate grief sacrifice that both my heart and mind have had to make.

Sep 13

Happy with a Broken Heart

Right before I went into surgery, I thought about my mom and dad; until I admitted to myself that I am not ready to see them again…

Jul 26

Thoughts of an Orphan Bride

...what it would have been like to have my parents present on my special day. Here are the thoughts of an orphan bride...

Jul 18

I just had to escape... but it was never about you

For some reason, I didn't want anything to do with my "old" life - the places, belongings and even the people. I just had to escape...

Jul 5

Pity in their Eyes

I remember the very first time I saw pity in an adult's eyes. It was a look of sheer sorrow, worry and regret. It was a look that made me..

Jun 27

Motherless mother - just the beginning

Don't get me wrong; instinctively I sort of knew what to do, but I secretly wished I could have had my mother around to impart wisdom...

Jun 18

Parenting beyond the grave...

There is so much I've forgotten (which breaks my heart), but the bit I remember has seen me through countless struggles...

Jun 4

My biggest fear

After my parents died, I feared to lose any more people I loved. I feared that initial feeling of shock..

Jun 4

Is writing a coping mechanism?

When my parents died there was only one thing that helped me cope with the pain and the anger I felt - writing.

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