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Feb 13

18 Years Later… Has My Grief Reached the Age of Majority? (An Open Letter)

Do 18 years mean that my grief has reached the age of majority? Do 18 years mean that the pain of losing you will become less intense? Do 18

Feb 7

Love Does Not Die

Today I’d like to briefly talk about how my two-year-old daughter is teaching me about a significant aspect of my grief. Enjoy!

Jan 10

Sometimes there is no "positive"

Sometimes grief really brings me to my knees. Sometimes there is just no positive...

Oct 11, 2020

To my Daughter's Grandparents

have written this poem for mom and dad, to help them celebrate their granddaughter’s birthday.

Sep 20, 2020

My Ultimate Grief Sacrifice

Today, I’d like to tell you about what I find to be the ultimate grief sacrifice that both my heart and mind have had to make.

Sep 13, 2020

Happy with a Broken Heart

Right before I went into surgery, I thought about my mom and dad; until I admitted to myself that I am not ready to see them again…

Jul 26, 2020

Thoughts of an Orphan Bride

...what it would have been like to have my parents present on my special day. Here are the thoughts of an orphan bride...

Jul 18, 2020

I just had to escape... but it was never about you

For some reason, I didn't want anything to do with my "old" life - the places, belongings and even the people. I just had to escape...

Jul 5, 2020

Pity in their Eyes

I remember the very first time I saw pity in an adult's eyes. It was a look of sheer sorrow, worry and regret. It was a look that made me..

Jun 27, 2020

Motherless mother - just the beginning

Don't get me wrong; instinctively I sort of knew what to do, but I secretly wished I could have had my mother around to impart wisdom...

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